I've had to resign from the pulpit due to Chronic Fatigue Syndrome. I spent nearly two weeks at the Mayo Clinic in 2017 for the diagnosis. Needless to say, it's been a great challenge. You face guilt, fears of failure, depression, gossip, worry about the financial future, and you just wish people understood. The television business has also gotten difficult with all of the responsibilities. I've been so blessed, yet challenges keep coming.
Last month, one of our granddaughters had another heart procedure. 4 years ago she had open heart surgery, and now her pulmonary valve replacement had all but completely blown out. The doctors were able to put a new one in without open heart surgery again, and she finally, at the age of 7, has a perfectly working heart. Of course, we were there for the surgery, but upon returning my health took a turn for the worse again.
As is common with CFS, you have good days and bad. Mine were getting better until... It seems that there are few things worse than getting a little hope, and then it comes crashing down the next day. Over and over and over the cycle goes until you find yourself being paranoid. Every life challenge seems to be overwhelming. Mowing the lawn is a three day, planned out activity. The reason I'm sharing this is that you might know that I understand what real stress feels like, especially when doctors say that stress amplifies CFS. The following is just a small part of where I have gone to overcome. In the larger scheme of understanding God's will in this I am finding that living the truth that Jesus is Lord of all has become my greatest source of living hope in every moment.
Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. Phil 4:6
Be careful for nothing; but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known unto God. And the peace of God, which passeth all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.
“careful” - to be anxious about: — (be, have) care(-ful), take thought. AV (19) - take thought 11, care 5, be careful 2, have care 1; to be anxious; to be troubled with cares; to care for, look out for (a thing); to seek to promote one's interests; caring or providing for.